I believe that you should not hold back your emotions

My father and i have a very strange relationship. when i was little i always wanted to be daddy's little girl so i wouldnt wear dresses or play with dolls because that's not want daddy's girls do. i would rather wear jeans and a tee-shirt and play in the mud. my favorit thing to do when i was little was go to the co op with my dad and older brother; it is here were i would see my father lift a feed sack with one are like it was full of feathers. i still remember riding on the tractor with him when he was working on the field behind our farm. i learned so much from this man

My brother is six years older then i, so he always spent more time with dad and i always got left behind because i was a girl and they were to do man work! there was never a time then i felt that i was not loved by my father, he just had a differnt was of showing it, then i would have liked.

when my father was little he was taught kids are to be seen but not heard. they are not to be hugged or shown any remorse of they will grow up to be soft, and this is not a world for a soft person. so, because of his beliefs my father does not hug, kiss, of tell us he loves us he feekld we shoukd know that because of what he has done for us.

I am the complete opposite i tell everyone that i am clase to, that i love them. i personaly believe they should know that everyday, in the horrible chance that i may never be able to tell them again! i hug everyone good bye and always tell them to have a good day.

i guess you could say my father's lack of emotion made me want to show it even more. My father is a great man and there is not many out there like him, and i know he loves me very much. i would have loved a hug every once in a while. so, for that, i belive in showing love and emotion to everyone close before it's too late.

Thanksgiving

i love thanksgive for all the turkey and pie! Not to forget the great family time we have together eating to much food and watching the football game. this year we had thanksgiving at my brothers and his new wife, it was kind of nice having the two families together! at 10:00 the power went out at are farm where they live, so in the middle of cookign the turkey we had no power! it took about 3 hours to get the power back on thank god the oven stayed warm enough so the turkey didtn get to cold and heated up very quickly. All in all we finaly at about 2:30. i had to eat fast and get out to my boyfriends by 3:30 to eat all over again. at there thanksgivign they have alot of family and so much food! one thing that is very differnt from ours is they pray and we all have to say what we are thankful for! and with 30 people at there house it takes for ever! after we eat we all lay around and watch the next football game that is on that day! it to hard to move let alone stay awake so i take a nap for a while! by the time i wake up it time to play games and i feel hungry again, its funny how that works. we played a new game this year it was like pictunary but with a guy you draw on now. it was so very hard, my first thing i have to draw was winny the poo! how the heck do you draw that in 2 min. thanksgivign is by far the pest hoiday out there!